Faces In The Halls

The sands, The sea and family...

I just cannot wait to get myself to my mother land and just kick back and relax after one really hectic roller coaster ride from school. From the transfers of the courses to the demands of getting classes from the classes we lost out to the school productions after the allocations pointed out for us, its just been really, really draining you know?

On top of my school fiasco, my sis' finished with her high school years and is gonna have a new beginning building her future and things in this household has been kinda tensed, especially after my dad had an unexpected drop in since my grandfather had to have his leg cut off. There were conflicts all due to the fact that she disobeyed by not telling my dad or my aunt's that she's gone off to have fun in a chalet.

You know, communication under our situations are very important and its very difficult if someone doesn't talk to each other. It makes things uncomfortable around this place and after a long day working on school productions and coming back to all this bullshit. It isn't healthy for me or my sis cause I believe the both of us need the support of at least a parent or a guardian to watch us over. So it seems right now that we're just looking out for ourselves and have only our friends to give us the support or at least watch over us for the moments we need.

Its depressing when you think about it. Me and my sister, Gadis, being victims of a tragedy that has broken our family and somehow, nothing been done for us. Sure, our parents would probably have a bit more in their pockets and a trickle falls down to our pockets but either way, its not about the money or the livelihood. It's more on an emotional need of having someone present.

I've looked both ways for both my parents and have listened to their stories. So has my aunt who has claimed that she has heard both stories and takes no side, but look and listen to the kids left behind from the after math and decide how deeply involved she's in just by taking care of us. She's here for a reason not to just keep an eye but perhaps provide something but the house i return to every night still feels real empty at times.

I really want both my mother and father to look at the bigger picture and really discuss on how to improve things for the both of us.

I'd give anything in the world to have them back and tell them that i love the both of them and that i really appreciate them at least being there for me.
I'd give anything to get my family back.

But aside from my opinions over the past (i have a feeling I've been complaining a tad bit too much over them both), I am definitely looking forward to going to Indonesia and really kicking it back! After a few days or so in wonderful Bandung, indulging myself in cheap cigarettes and bottled tea with homemade food by mummy dearest, its indulgement of the good times with great company and beautiful sights in BALI!

There's going to be surf and sandy turf, little Kika and her first experience by the sea, (That adorable little fishball is already 1 year old!) and of course cousins and friends such as Shella, Ditto, Sese, Reza, Andra, Genta and much much more! I'm gonna really kick it back with fellas like Alicia, Alexis, Gadis and Thanesh. Man! I am too excited over this blog.

I apologize for not being regular with the posts cause I've been busy semester long and I'll be away for holiday till at least January. I'll most probably be back a day after New Year or so, before the 4th so till then ladies and gentleman, This kid is packing his bags and kicking it back after months of stage and theatre goodness...

I asked for a hall pass just as the final bell rang...