Dear Readers! (if there is any...)

Apologies for the inconsistent updates on the blog of yours truly so here's a brief update on what the hell is going in my life (on a lighter note, maybe this blog post is really for me but I don't know)

Read on, since you're that into my life in the first place.

For the time being, I'm currently part of the Silent Precision Drill Squad, a sort of disciplined performance group in the SAF and apparently, I'm lined up to participate for The National Day Parade so boy do I have a lot lined up for me for these coming months. I'm currently taking up the course that would qualify me in the squad so that's that. It's so tiring! My muscles are growing AND aching at the same time so let's just hope that the buff me won't scare the kids away.

Also currently taking up the marriage course in Inspirasi, which goes co-currently with my training in the army so yeah, I've got quite a lot on my plate for the moment. phew~

And yeah. the wedding is definitely on. This boy is getting married sometime after march, around Mid to End of April but definitely sometime this coming month.

I suppose I should sound extra excited of the upcoming event of my life and truth be told, I am, it's amazing that I'm actually embarking on this journey and I am fortunate enough that I found the love of my life.

Life just appears to be a little scary for awhile and sometimes, I'm not sure if I'm ready to face it. I know I can but whether I'm really ready or not. I don't know.

I just think too much and I get so stressed up over that, that I just. It's affecting the people closest to me and that scares me.

I'm afraid of losing the people closest to me, having lost the kin that was supposed to be there already. My family is angry at me over my angry email and I'm, I'm just here having to face the future that is mine.

Zahid needs better English on his blog. He's losing it!

I need to soothe the ache I guess cause I need to be strong and ready for what's to come.

But most importantly, I need to be me. There's no different person other than me that can take that place beside the throne of my queen.

The graduates of Crush High ran past us and left a corridor of Diplomas and Dreams that pave our way to the future that is ours. I grasp her hand and told her I'm ready and I smiled. She didn't really grasp back.