So... It has been quite sometime since I updated huh?

Well, it has been quite eventful. Very eventful actually, ever since I got married and moved on, the past one month into my 20th birthday has been, difficult, not to say hard for me to cope but... you know, eventful.

First things for the start, I just moved out of my Jurong East home, a home I called since I was thirteen and now, I've finally actually left it. I used to call it home and every time I'm in Jurong East, it has always been a familiar place but now, it isn't that place anymore for me. Jurong East has appeared to be another space that I can't quite comprehend if that is the right way to write this sentence.

It still gets to me... It does. I mean, I just, I don't know. Who would have thought that me being thrown out of my own due to defiance would be a chapter in my life.

But I'll get along. There's always home somewhere.

I didn't get into the Silent Precision Drill Squad (SPDS). Bummer. I mean, I figured that I was going to be doing drills and ceremonies for the rest of my NS life but after being kicked out of the squad, not say kicked out but not selected, things just doesn't come into that much perspective. I always thought that doing drills would be bring meaning to my time in my service instead of just doing some clerical work in some office but if that's what i have to end up doing, I'll just find things to make my time much more worthwhile other than just finding meaning in my menial service for the army.

And I'm losing touch with some of my friends. One friend in particular and truth be told, I'm awfully worried.

But the way I see things, all this is a baptism of fire for me where I'll emerge shining amidst all the stress and pressure of what's my life come to be. There's two things that cannot happen to me in this chapter.

1. I cannot break.
2. I cannot let that fire in me die out just because things have just come down for the worst.

These are the two things that make me whole as a person and the very reason why I can always get by every single day.

Every single day.

Things just have to get better from here on. It just has to and if it doesn't, it just means that it hasn't come full circle before things start picking up again.

He woke up this morning and he wonders how he does it every single day.